Hello, I'm back!

I know it has been too long since I've blogged on here. Bear with me... my life has been turned upside down on me. As most of my family/ friends who care to read this knows... the Good and bad... we now have a baby boy and my mother died.

I am doing well. I am thankful each day for the wonderful blessing Daniel is! God had perfect timing, He knew I would need Daniel as a distraction in life for dealing with the death of my mom. I miss her and have my days when I have a good hard cry, but then I start thinking about where she is... Heaven... and I immediately feel better. The selfish side of me wants mom back... however; I think about the way life was for her right before she died and am reminded that it is better that she is not here.

I don't know if any of you out there, who are reading this, are going through some hard times or storms in your life... if you are... hang in there, God hasn't forgotten you. I was married over 12yrs before I was finally blessed with a baby. Many times I wondered if God was hearing my prayers and when my mom was diagnosed with terminal cancer, my prayers became even more urgent. I don't have all the answers and am not a genious in the prayer department... but one thing I know for sure... is that God listens. He doesn't always answer our prayers in the time frame we would like, but He does answer them. I am amazed at how beautifully God orchestrated Daniel coming into our lives and mom leaving our lives. God's hand in all of that is so "in your face", you can't help but see how He really does see the big picture. I'll explain this more in my next post. I also plan to type in a prayer I wrote out on paper the night mom died.

So.... that being said... forgive me for not posting on here in a while. I was at a loss for words... didn't know where to begin on trying to put my jumbled-up feelings into words on here. Thank you for your patience. :)